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Grace

Tue, 19 Apr 2011 06:58:52 -0700

..is given undeserved.

When one is in a flight or fight situation, the TRUE true colour comes out. Oh trust me, they do.

When I realised mine today, I didn't like it. I abandoned a friend for my own safety. it's a big no no. Wrong move. Wrong. WRONG!

I was a simon peter.

Eventhough both of us are safe now, but the guilt lingers.

Why was I so....selfish?

And yet again, during shower, Jesus reminded me of a sentence He gave me for sharing last week.

The case of Samaritan Woman. When JEsus asked her 'has no one condemned you', and she said 'no one'.

And here comes HIs beautiful reply, "Neither do I condemn you'.

So, here's His sentence for the sharing last week.

" When Jesus shows up, no one can condemn you, not even yourself is 'qualified' "

and HE asked 'Do you not trust what you've shared?"

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Be a (wo)man, be the abraham.

Mon, 18 Apr 2011 01:04:49 -0700

Interesting suggestion from y'day's session.

It's all about laying down our lives for the other right? sheep or no sheep, friends or foe, very good friends or best buds, shouldn't matter.

Lord, help me be a joyful Abraham, for the past, present or future.

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God...

Mon, 13 Dec 2010 06:27:05 -0800

...or gods?

A lot of focus is needed when one walks on thin thread. Every distraction is a danger. Only the One in front is safety.

Teach me Lord, to just focus on the big G, and not the small g(s). I don't want to fall to my death.

"It's foolishness to dwell on you,

When I can gain wisdom by committing it to the correct 'You'."

Strengthen my failing heart with Your unfailing love, this I plea.

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Are you in love...

Thu, 25 Nov 2010 05:48:53 -0800

...with the One who calls you His own?

So many times, we are in love with other things, or other people, but not in love with the One who first loved us.

We complain how our love are not reciprocated by other people, yet don't we realise how God feels when we don't respond to His love, when it is so clearly spelt out that He loves us?

We spend so much time, wanting love from others,

when we can find love in Christ.

We get discouraged when people don't appreciate/remember our good deeds,

but how often do we remember God?

Why are His creation treating the Creator, like that?

Can we spend our time, rather than trying to earn someone's love, to loving God? Because only He deserves ALL of our love, ALL of our service, ALL of our praise.

Help me, Lord. I don't want to be distracted.

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Unsung Love song.

Wed, 27 Oct 2010 05:40:34 -0700

I sought song inside

but found a heart of brick unused to singing,

and the words came very slow. It seemed as if the gentle pressure of the Father's finger

had caused a slight crevasse midst all the hardness,

and there, down deep, there bubbled up a quiet spring.

But still no song,

just risings which never reached above the surface.

And though there was no singing, somehow there was a harmony

not often heard among clattering temporalities

Love was the keynote of the deep spring's song.

Peace and joy chimed softly,

and other little recesses opened in the hardness,

and gentleness, born of the fractures of sorrow,

flowed unhindered to fill the rising pool.

And as the music played, the brick dissolved,

and my soul was happy, though there were still no words.

-Jim Elliot-

taken from "The Journals of Jim Elliot"

Yes, I'm finally a proud owner of that book!

I managed to pick and choose some of his entries while making my way home today, and his written thoughts blew my mind away~!

I had so much to chew on, so much to ponder on. It's amazing. I love the way he analysed verses, scriptures, etc...

Also, the book shows me that I know I'm not alone in this.

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snooze

Fri, 15 Oct 2010 09:12:30 -0700

i so understand you.

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Alabaster jar

Tue, 05 Oct 2010 07:18:30 -0700

The next time i meet a missionary, my first question would be ...

"What's the most painful decision you have to make?"

I can almost guessed that the first few words of that answer would be - "I had to let go of *fill in the blanks*..."

Because isn't that why all christians struggle?

There's always one thing (at least) that causes us to be disobedient, or procrastinators in obeying God.

Well, at least I do. I have more than one...ten...etc...

Mary, who broke the alabaster jar and poured all the perfume on Jesus' head, gave everything she had. She probably wouldn't have thought of doing such a thing that seems so foolish in the eyes of man 3 years ago. But when she did, I guess she never knew she could do it until she did it. She will never realise that she was able to give her all until she realised it happened. We will never realise that we are actually capable of breaking our alabaster jar until we do it. When we do, there will be that sense of release unto the Lord and to hear the precious words of "wherever the gospel is preached throughout the world, what she has done will also be told, in memory of her" will be so worth it. What a joy and privilege to hear that from Jesus!

"gospel preached" + "in memory of her" = Mary testimony will be told wherever the gospel is being preached = Mary has left a legacy to help the gospel to be preached!

I am thinking aloud as I type this.

Which means, leaving a legacy is all about breaking our alabaster jar to Jesus!

Strategies, plans, structure all are secondary!

The primary is giving our all to God = Set apart for Him.

Have we compromised the primary and settled for the results of the secondary instead?

Do we want to leave a legacy? If yes, what is our alabaster jar that we have to break for Jesus?

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Spring is here!

Sun, 03 Oct 2010 05:28:11 -0700

hooray to the budding flowers! Time to grow!

Weather has been fantastically in favour to people who loves sunshine! A que for for us to take out our sun screen!

I got the privilege to celebrate the wonderful sunshine in Philip Island for 3 days, together with people with extraordinary stories. Global Conference is the name.

I don't even know where to begin in terms of answering questions like 'how was it' or 'what did you learn'. There're so much nuggets of gold that I extracted and i had so much fun extracting them. It's bursting-ly exciting and encouraging!

One thing that stood out was the unity that i see in the HOPE family. I've been to combined camps, etc...but none like this. I call this conference a combined one because it's international ad interstate-ish. From the sharing of different preachers, to the opportunity to listen to various leaders sharing their experiences of leading (be it CCM, or LG, etc...), the whole atmosphere was such an encouraging sight. I personally got the chance to talk to one of the pastors and it's amazing to just learn from him as I asked him various questions that it has been on my heart lately.

"...Father, just as You are in Me and I am in You. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me"

John 17:21b

Apart from learning on different aspects of wisdom, i've also learnt that unity is how people will know that Jesus is real! I'm glad to have a taste of that.

Now that I'm back to reality, it's my prayer to maintain that taste of goodness, and to allow other people taste His goodness too.

Forward we go, to God we draw closer to, for lives we claim for His kingdom.

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MOSS-ee-ful.

Tue, 21 Sep 2010 08:03:56 -0700

Just quick shout out to my two MOSS members who just turned 23 years OLD =p

Blessed Birthday!!!!

Patiently awaits for another makan date in Feb. haha!

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It's up to you.

Sat, 18 Sep 2010 23:41:51 -0700

God took a risk when He gave us free will.

The risk of us turning against Him.

The risk of us wasting our lives on the average.

Had a short meaningful chat with an old friend about an event he attended

And he said : "i am challenged to aim for something...impossible"

"Was that a typo?" i thought.

And as i read the chat further, no...that was no typo.

To aim for the impossible.

It makes perfect sense. How would we experience God's miraculous power when we are complacent at the naturally-possible circumstances?

Along the lines of Kingdom legacy, they charged towards the impossible.

I mean, i know that with God, all things are possible. But i forgot about the active part that we have to contribute. To set impossible goals. Goals that only with God it can be achieved.

Looking and listening to today's preacher in church, i had a tiny glimpse of what God's power can do.

His message was simple.

"Have a spirit-filled life that is fully surrendered to God".

THe problem is, we complicated the simplicity of His message.

We create grey areas, we entertain doubts.

Do we allow God to have the complete final say in our lives?

If we do, then our story, will be a God-story.

The choice is.....up to us.

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Untitled

Fri, 17 Sep 2010 08:30:08 -0700

Steadfastness, that is holding on;

patience, that is holding back;

expectancy, that is holding the face up;

obedience, that is holding one's self in readiness to go or do;

listening, that is holding quiet and still so as to hear.

How long, Lord, must I wait?

Never mind child. Trust me.

- by Elisabeth Elliot, from 'Passion and Purity'-

The state of nevermind-ness. Especially when it's this.

how do i nevermind, in..this?

"read the bible" ...tick

"goes to church"...tick

"serve"...tick

"have faith"...tick

"trust"...half tick

"obey"...maybe

"set apart"... uh, one less tick doesnt really matter hor?

"set apart to be royal priesthood, a holy nation..."

our business is ....really, to trust and obey, and be set apart for God.

It can't be *that* hard right...

really?

So the nevermindness can come when we focus of being set apart for Him.

Cuz other things do fall into place after that.

Then why is it so hard for ppl to change from 'i mind', to 'nevermind'.

Why is it so hard to trust God, our Creator.

Why do we struggle giving ourselves to the One who knows best.

...because we think we know better.

or i thought i know better.

I really do....want.

I think it's best for me. Me thinks is good.

At the end of the day, I cant help but to shout out in surrender- 'nevermind!' and trust in Him.

He knows best, afterall.

He knows me.

We just need to continue to serve and trust Him. Other issues? Nevermind. It's in His hands.

Ms Jane Loke, kingdom first.

Gladly. Willingly. Joyfully.

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biographies.

Wed, 08 Sep 2010 04:47:36 -0700

I have a thing for biographies now.

Just bought a new book....again. It makes me happy. hahaha! thought of sharing the joy. ahhaha!

Stil trying to get hold of 'Journals of Jim Elliot', but it's currently out of stock (it shows his fame! =p)

So...i bought a new release book name 'choosing to see' by Mary Beth Chapman instead.

Yup. Steven Chapman's wife.

It's a written journey about her/their struggles and hope, especially coping with the lost of their youngest daughter Maria. Definitely worth a read, (or two). =)

Real-life stories are an inspiration.

What's our story then?

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Unlearnt lesson

Thu, 02 Sep 2010 05:36:30 -0700

Different environment, same situation.

Same response, same emotions.

The same evaluation.

The same mind battle.

The same after effect.

What.did.i.not.learn? I want to graduate from this.

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Dream Malaysia

Tue, 31 Aug 2010 06:57:47 -0700

Here In My Home

Blessed 53rd Birthday Malaysia =)

I miss you even more each year I'm away from you.

And each time i feel that, each time I'm convinced that I will return.

But as for now, at this season, I'll keep praying from where I am.

In one of the letters of Jim Elliot to Elisabeth Elliot, he mentioned : " Wherever you are, be all there".

I shan't whine over the fact of how much i miss my home country, but do whatever i can now in where I am.

No matter how people may say that you are in such a disadvantage position, you are still my home, my land, my country.

We need to pray for Msia. NO matter how bitter you feel about this country, it's still your homeland. And we have a responsibility to pray, even when we are away.

Yesterday's Merdeka eve gathering was really timely. Nothing more precious, than coming together to usher in the new year of msia with interceding for our land as our first agenda.

What's your Msia dream?

What's your heart for Msia?

.Unity.

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Untitled

Thu, 26 Aug 2010 07:21:14 -0700

Jesus is amazing.

I wondered how He would have reacted to my tiny situations today.

Would He feel as frustrated and irritated as i did?

With His all-loving character, i think He would have poured out more love, rather than being frustrated.

LG lesson about Jim Elliot also reminded me about the big picture.

THE BIG PICTURE.

And so, i should move on, live above circumstances, and not be childish!

To take hold of what Christ took hold for me!

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Life is fragile

Fri, 20 Aug 2010 07:37:02 -0700

A flower that quickly fades, a vapour in the wind.

And what are we really doing with our fragile lives?

What are we indulging ourselves in?

As silly as it sounds, Im still searching for what I'm truly made for.

The usual purposes, yes, i have it in my head.

But really, what exactly is my mould?

A circle? square? star? hexagon?

I really want to move forward and toward being that mould.

And i believe I am still work in progress, towards that.

Learnt something new during shepherding, in John 15:1-8

Whether we bear or don't bear fruit, we will still go through the pruning or the cutting.

So, since we will get pruned anyhow, might as well enjoy the process.

Life is really too short to live on complaints, and negativity.

There are just so many things waiting for us to do... so many. Leave no room for complaints, judgements, and self pity.

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It's one thing to talk...

Wed, 18 Aug 2010 05:51:26 -0700

...another thing to walk.

Jim Elliot and Elisabeth Elliot definitely walked the talk.

Re-reading about their lives again and i just went wow again. It never bores me how amazing this couple is. Eventhough it was the second read.

His dedication, her devotion.

His passion, her purity.

HIs mission, her vision.

His priority, her wait.

Their love.

This book that i have been reading concentrates on Jim Elliot's mission to the Auca's, and the adventure, which led to the legacy that he left.

However,one could find that in almost all of the records of his life journey, his partner-Elisabeth Elliot's name is always present.

When we talk about Jim Elliot's mission, one will have to talk about his love life too.

Because it is so sincere, and an example to many.

Particularly how when both of them continue to wait upon the Lord cuz they don't know when they are going to cross path again.

Both had a choice, and they chose to serve God first.

Even if it means not seeing each other for months or years.

Not to mention that slow mail is the only form of communication.

I would definitely love to have a day with Elisabeth Elliot, to know how she handled all her emotional and mental struggles. How did she manage to carry out her husband's work in the mission field, to the very same tribe that speared her long awaited love. It boggles my mind. And only one answer, God's love and grace that overflows in her. It's just amazing.

It is indeed a call for ladies to continue to wait upon the Lord, because He reserves the best for those who waits upon Him.

And it is also a call for more of His love and Grace to flow into our lives, so that it overflows to others.

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hopeful latter

Wed, 30 Jun 2010 00:04:22 -0700

When I'm weak and weary
When I've lost my way
There's someone i call on
Jesus is His name

When i'm feeling lonely
Someone hears my prayer
I can call on Jesus
I know He will hear me there

He holds my hand
He guides my way
His loving arms are there
to catch me when i fall
He holds my hand
He leads me through
In times like these I know for sure
He holds my hand

-RCM publication's 'He holds my hand'-

In the gethsemane, desires needs to be detached, and more of His love needs to be attached.
Detachment leaves a tear, but attachment places comfort and healing.
The former is painful, but the latter is hopeful.
but the former comes first.

Have been fighting not to be detached. Fighting to be part of me. Fighting to keep it.
But eventually, giving up my rights was the option that i had to make.
But lovingly, He promised He will bring His way of attachment.

Hi Dr.Jesus, I need an operation...

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Same Side of The Moon by Corrinne May

Sun, 27 Jun 2010 06:30:27 -0700

via youtube.com

I will just have to make do with sharing the same side of the moon, with the absence of home. Oh, how i miss you to tears, home.

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They are here!!!

Sun, 13 Jun 2010 07:28:49 -0700

The two backpackers have arrived =D

Thank You God for their safe arrival.

*smiles*

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